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The Hard Truth About Depression

I spent thousands of dollars on counseling and therapy before I realized this. I saw 3 different psychologists. I went to my counseling sessions every week. I talked about my problems. I told them about my past. I thought I was doing all the right things.

I spent thousands of dollars on counseling before realizing I had to fix myself.

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But I wasn’t getting any better.

Don’t get me wrong, I felt better when I was there. I felt better when I was able to tell them things I couldn’t or wouldn’t tell anyone else. I felt better for a day or 2 after the session.

But it was all temporary. I wasn’t getting any better.

It was more like having a paid (expensive) friend to tell my problems to. It felt good to get things off my chest. But it would have felt better to actually be free from depression.

Psychologists can’t save you from your depression.

They can get you to talk about your life.
They can get you to talk about your past.
They can get you to talk about your insecurities.
They can get you to talk about your fears.
They can get you to talk about your dreams.

They can’t make you do the work.

Psychologists can’t save you from your depression.

They can get you to talk about your life.
They can get you to talk about your past.
They can get you to talk about your insecurities.
They can get you to talk about your fears.
They can get you to talk about your dreams.
But they can’t make you do the work.

They can’t fix you.

Psychologists can’t save you from your depression.

They can guide you through thought patterns.
They can guide you into realizations.
They can guide you around your mind
They can guide you into breakthroughs.
They can guide you into healthier ways of viewing life.

They can’t change your day to day self-talk and thinking.

Only you can do that.

Finally, I got fed up.

I realized I wasn’t getting any better.
I realized I was spending tons of money for nothing.
I realized I had to find something that would help me.
I realized I was stuck in a hamster wheel.
I realized the therapist didn’t have any financial benefit in me getting better.
I realized I had to break free from depression on my own.

If I didn’t do it on my own, I’d never get better.

So I did what any self-respecting geek would do. I started searching the Internet for help.

Internet Search to Beat Depression
I wanted to cure my own depression. Also, I use Duck Duck Go instead of Google.

I googled this and that.
I googled gurus.
I googled supplements.
I googled hypnosis.
I googled anything you I think of.

And some of it worked.

The first breakthroughs I really had were supplements. They helped me to control my emotions without needing a doctor’s prescription. Some worked. Some didn’t. I kept searching.

Next, I found hypnosis. The hypnosis MP3s I bought helped me to calm down and gain a bit of confidence. But the benefit didn’t seem to keep increasing with progressive listens. I kept searching.

Then I found some personal development gurus. It was fascinating. many of them had a piece of the puzzle, but none had everything I needed. I found many helpful gurus and teachers. I experimented. I combined methods. I found things that genuinely worked.

My downward spiral started moving upward.

That really was the most awesome feeling. I noticed that I was having fewer negative thoughts. I was feeling less bad. I was feeling human. Without taking any supplements. In fact, I had quit using the supplements because I wanted to do this journey without them.

My emotions were leveling out and I was able to not hate myself. Or life. Or other people. Or hate anything at all.

I started getting along with my wife and we started hanging out more.

Life wasn’t really good, yet. But it was no longer bad.

And that was good.

I kept going.
I kept researching.
I kept learning.
I kept trying new methods.
I kept trying new combinations.
I kept improving my life.

And suddenly, I was smiling occasionally.

THIS IS AWESOME!!! I’M SMILING!!!

And I was smiling automatically. Without faking it. That’s the moment I realized my work really was paying off.

But I never would have gotten here if I’d stayed in therapy. I’d still be depressed. And suicidal. And paying hundreds of dollars every month to stay depressed.

I beat my own depression.

And I want to help you do the same thing I was able to do.

Stay tuned. I have a couple free mini-courses coming out soon. And a major course coming out after those.

TimBiden
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